Pain?

It is a very odd sensation to have a deep and heavy pain across my chest, with occasional sharp, stabbing, worst pain I have ever felt kind of twinges and to simultaneously have no feeling across the skin of my chest. It hurts so bad and I can't feel anything.

My heart hurts a ton, at the moment.  Last night, as my first night home from the hospital, went pretty much as expected.  My mom and husband tried to get the girls to sleep without me in their own bed, but after a lot of screaming and crying, they both ended up with me in my bed.  David slept in their bed and Olivia eventually joined him there.  Tonight, I tried reclining on the outer edge of their bed, rather than in between the girls, so it would be easier to get up later, but they ended up fighting over who got to be right next to me.  We tried positioning them at a diagonal so they could both have their heads by me, but neither girl wanted that. My mom offered to sleep on the other side, and that was okay with them for a minute, but it didn't solve the issue of who got to be next to me.  My pain medicine was wearing off and I was feeling the effects of being up for most of the day. In their attempts to maneuver in next to me, I got bumped and squished a few too many times, and I had to remove myself from the equation, much to their fury. When I came downstairs, I could hear Olivia doing her banshee scream. David can't really tell me what happened, but after a couple minutes it stopped and he came down and my mom stayed up with the girls. And it is quiet up there now.  Phew!

At bedtime, the later it gets the more unreasonable the girls get.  I wanted to be sensitive and try to find something that would work, but I had to remove myself from the middle of it.  It is painful to walk away from them when they want me.

Bravo Mom and Bravo David!!  I thank the stars that you are here to weather the storm.